Advice me please.....helpppp meeeee?

i love doing make up.but whenever i use make up i feel guilty i'v never a person like my self to feel same as me after dong make up.after puting make up on i feel i am hiding something and i am not a reall person i feel fake.but whenever i dont use make up i feel too im not lovely because all the girl do make up.it's really getting me down.what should i do with my feeling????any advice for me??????